it was a cold day at the studio and i was freezing slowly. waiting for the others because they have to finish the other important thing. i read books, couldn't listen to music since i forgot my thingy at home. so i end up in front of the screen. thats why i always do NOTHING.
i was seeing long and smooth legs. models were from russia and the other long legged countries. they talked shit all the time. i saw how beauty was stupid again. i was feeling damn awful and people were calling me all the time but i had to finish my work. and i really wanted to die because i couldn't fucking say no. you know what people, i have work because i have to pay my bills. and i fucking can't move right now because if i leave this studio at this moment all those people will get mad at me. and probably i'll lose my fucking job. and i feel really sorry for myself because i ain't no kid anymore. i just want to be fucking happy. okay. so, can you please leave me fucking alone and can you please try to understand me BECAUSE I AM TIRED OF BEING. can you please understand me and ask me if i was feeling well? because you know what? i don't fucking feel well because you are all moving so fast and i can't fucking catch you up all. okay? i know you have fucking problems too. yeah life is hard, SO AM I. don't tell me sweet things about friendship. i just feel fucking tired. i just wanna feel happy. i have to work. and this day sucks. and i lost my control, i have to work now. please bye.
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